First, I want to apologize for being away for so long. I'm in serious denial that I have too much going on in my life. I want so badly to be able to see all of my friends and family more than I do. There are so many times during the week that I think about how badly I need to go hang out with (fill in practically anyone's name). I feel terribly guilty about how I'm not there for so many people on so many occasions.
So I'm going to be honest for a minute: I'm exhausted. I'd really love to stay at home for an entire week and only see my family. It would be so nice to be able to shut off my phone and just be at home. I miss sitting around the house reading. I miss sewing and painting and playing with Layla until she's exhausted. I miss putting her down for a mid-day nap and actually being there when she wakes up. I miss baking and even watching a good show on TV. I even miss cleaning.....yes, it is possible to miss this.
Deep down inside of me, my inner intravert is crying out. You see, I've always known that I would rather sit at home reading a good book or painting than being super social. And with Layla's arrival and my ridiculous schedule of school and work, I've had very little time to be still and quiet.
A friend of mine and fellow blogger just made her New Year's Resolution because she didn't want to wait until January 1st to do something that she needs to start now. I think I will do the same. This may sound completely opposite of what I should be doing, but I want to make a resolution to stay at home and be still more. I want to be artsy and know that I'm spending time nurturing and growing in relationship with my Jesus, my husband and my daughter. I absolutely realize that this means I will probably spend even less time with people that I love that I hardly have any time to spend with now. But for a season, I need this. I need to remember who I am and stop long enough to be able to hear God's voice in my life.