This blog has been quiet the last couple of days. I've wanted to write something, but I didn't want to just write over and over again how hectic my life is right now (not like that will ever change). I want this blog to be a place to store profound issues and victories in my walk with Jesus, but also a place that I can simply share my day and how Layla is growing. I never want it to be so overwhelmingly intense that you have to brace yourelf to read it. I never want it to be so trivial that you see don't care to read it at all. I hope I find a balance eventually that will be just right.
So the Church has always taught me that I should have a relationship with Jesus. This is obviously an on-going process and one that I have even come close to getting right yet. What the Church has never taught me is that I should have a relationship with the Holy Spirit. He's always been this intangible, spirit-thing that is more like a guiding force than a person. I mean, something called the "Holy Spirit" has to be just a spirit......right? Plus he/it is in me....aka my body....so he/it can't be a person or anything.....right? And if he isn't a person then he doesn't really have feelings or need relationship.....right?
So get this: What if the Holy Spirit was a person; not the physical kind, but the Jesus/ God kind? Woah. That changes EVERYTHING. What if I'm supposed to have a relationship with the Holy Spirit, just like I do with Jesus/ the Father? (For all you theologians out there: I know they are ONE, but they are also different. I know that by having a relationship with Jesus, we have a relationship with the Holy Spirit, in a roundabout way, since they are ONE. But we shouldn't forget that the Holy Spirit is the one inside of us....and the one that we seem to never pray to.....ex: I hear "Dear Lord" "Lord Jesus" "Holy Father" etc etc all the time, but RARELY hear "Dear Spirit" etc.) I don't mean to claim to know much about this subject at all. Honestly, I know very little about the Holy Spirit and how the trinity works. I'm not sure anybody really knows anything about the trinity works though.....
Regardless, when Jesus ascended into Heaven, He sent the Holy Spirit down to be our counselor and to dwell within us. He even said that it was better for us that this happen. So why have we forgotten that He's even here? Why do we push Him to the background of our lives and only ask for help from the Father and the Son? I don't have any answers. All I have is more questions and this gut feeling that there is a whole nother PERSON of the Godhead that I never really knew was there.
On the lighter side: